i am a paiute native

I grew up in the Owens Valley on the Big Pine Paiute Reservation. This reservation and experience differs from what you may have seen on television or heard through the grapevine. Our reservation is not miles from town, it is in the town of Big Pine, CA. We shared a school with non Native children and grew up within a community that both knew of our culture and shared in it through school and local events. I, personally never felt negatively impacted. I cannot speak for everyone, however.

i am a mother

I became a mother at the young age of 17. This child is now attending Stanford University on a four year scholarship. She is amazing, brilliant, strong, and beautiful. I am so proud of her accomplishments.

My other children are in grades 7, 4, and 2. They are each making their own paths and have very unique and beautiful personalities. I cannot wait to see what their future holds.

My youngest is a ballerina princess who loves pink, Monster High, and having mommy & me time away from her brothers. She is a sweet girl who follows the rules and doesn't like mean people.

My second youngest is a sweethearted loving boy who is always eager to be helpful and supportive. He is funloving and doesn't let much bother him. He is so adorable (only don't tell him that) and so awesome (what he approves to be called).

My second oldest is a typical teen becoming a man. His transition to middle school has been smooth and he likes having more than one teacher. He is a goodhearted kid who helps out a lot and is becoming a very good person in his own right.

i am divorced & i am a widow

I have been married twice. I married my high school sweetheart when I was 19, we divorced two years later. Looking back, I realize we were both too young for such an endeavor and had some serious growing up to do. At the time, I didn't realize how much I would learn from this, but in the years since, I grew to understand many things about myself and relationships.

I was married to my second husband for 12 years before he passed away in February 2014. This loss devastated our family and much was lost and felt at his passing. I won't say our relationship was easy, because it was far from that. There were good times, we shared three children, and we devoted our lives to them and each other. Mistakes were made, and I had to let go of a lot of anger without resolution. In the end, I let forgiveness set me free. I believe he is at peace now, and his suffering was ended in this life.

i am a fangirl

I obsess over many things, I fanlist, I make fansites and I blog. I also collect many webthings and pixels and read and write and keep it all in my personal space (aka personal website).

I love television. I currently follow many many many shows, and have loved many many many shows in the past. I love to see movies, I have a jar full of ticket stubs I save. I love to read and am obsessed with Stephen King, VC Andrews, classics, and new classics. I have been an avid reader since elementary school. You can read all about this and more in my personal space.